I welcomed 2017 with bittersweet hope, looking down the road full of uncertainties. In my last post, I spoke of never-ending brick walls in my way. I was nearly in despair, only to be reminded of the love & support I am surrounded by. It was the one bubble keeping me hopeful & pushing me on. Continuously whacking at that brick wall with my battered hammer.

And today, I am happy to announce that I have finally broken down that brick wall! Made a huge hole in it, and watched it crumble. Then proceeded to climb over it; now I’m seated on the remnants of that wall, sipping on my iced lemon tea, and staring at yet another brick wall a little further down the road. But that’s ok! Nothing can dampen the triumph I feel right now. The sense of achievement, the appreciation of just how much I have accomplished, & the cognizance of how far I have come.

The most important lesson I’ve learnt in 2016 is perseverance brings progress. One step at a time, things started to work out. There was always something in the way, rocks, boulders, rivers, you name it. All the damned time. I started wishing so hard for things to be over, for everything to come together already but all I experienced was the seconds ticking by like they always have, speed unchanged despite my fervour prayers.

I had to learn, that there is a time and place for everything. And there was. Every action, every decision, every turn led me to where I am right now. It wasn’t always easy. But I always remember believing in the magic.


“And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”


Like how I’ve wished so hard for snow to come falling and, finally I got to see snow woo-hoo!

I honestly believed in that. It is one of those things that I keep telling myself over the years whenever I come across adversities. It is one way of letting myself discover how much I really want something. Because one can only have so many dreams, and one can only achieve all of them if they really want to. Don’t you think?


“There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure.”


I promised myself I wouldn’t let the fear of failure stop me. Even if I think it almost did. My mom never lets me forget that it’s ok to try again (& again & again & again…). It’s not the end of the world.


 “The secret of life, though, is to fall seven times and to get up eight times.”


And that, my friends, is how perseverance brings progress. Because by the eighth time, you would’ve set fire to the rain.

I did.

After two long years of paperwork, exams, and bureaucrazy, I am finally a registered nurse in this country I now call home. It was just yesterday that I was reminded that it has been 2 years since I graduated, since I made the decision to make my dreams a reality.

I don’t think I have ever been more proud of myself.

Right. Off to tackle that brick wall down the hall. Beyond that wall lies my new phase in life & I can hardly wait to begin.

To my first success of 2017.





Toodles. ♥

Good evening, everyone.


It’s been a rather long day today, had some…news in the morning. I wouldn’t say they’re good news, neither would I say they are bad. I would say…they are surprising news. The last of my results were announced earlier today and yes, I had mixed feelings. Surprisingly, it was not up to my expectations and I wasn’t sure what to think.


I got into the car with dad as we headed out and I swear, God was sending a message to me. Why? I turned on the radio and the DJs were talking about the importance of qualifications. Of all days, why? Already I had a lot to think about, and they had to talk about this. Amazingly, it seemed as if someone’s trying to get the message across, to me – I felt like it was meant for me to hear it. For me to seek comfort and poise.


Some were saying how a qualification – a piece of paper – is of utmost importance, while some people think it’s more meaningful to be doing what you’re most passionate of. There is no right or wrong, it’s like two sides of a coin, and you need both sides to make one complete coin. But the moral of the story wasn’t about who’s going to win the argument. In fact, the message that I got out of the 15 minutes debate was the fact that everyone agreed that attitude towards the job is what powerful enough to make or break you.


Not to mention, I got a crazy long ass message from the boy trying to make me see things in a different light and said about the same things that I heard from the radio that morning. And that only confirmed what I have been feeling all day. That God wants me to know this, and that not all is in vain.


I sure hope I’m not delusional. Because it’s a darn powerful message you’re sending me, God. 😉





When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.

Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist.


I live by this quote, and I do believe that if we want something bad enough; somehow we’ll get there. Maybe not directly, not immediately, not easily. But we will, we just need to keep believing and never give up. Even when it seems like the whole world has turned its’ back on us. Even when it seems like it’s impossible to achieve. Even if we are too close to the edge, too close to breaking down.


The sky is our limit; we just have to reach out and extend our grasp.





Toodles. ♥